Monday, April 30, 2012

16 weeks vs 17 weeks

16 weeks vs 17 weeks
The photo above is a comparison of my stomach  from the last week. Crazy! You can definitely see a difference.  Below is a shot of my stomach as of tonight. I bought more of those tube bra things yesterday at Nordstrom Rack they have so many different kinds on sale for $5. They are soooo comfy, I love them. 

I've been in the worst pain all day. So much cramping, which means the babies are growing like crazy!!! UGH! I also made the mistake of sleeping on my back last night and woke up with a leg cramp that has been buggin all day. I forgot that my pregnant buddy Erin Gay told me NO SLEEPING ON YOUR BACK!!!! Boy was she right. If you don't know why I took the information below from baby center that will explain it.
"When you're sleeping on your back, the weight of your uterus lies on the spine, back muscles, intestines, and major blood vessels. This can lead to muscle aches and pains,hemorrhoids, and impaired circulation, which is uncomfortable for you and can reduce circulation to your baby."

This is my How you doin? Look hahahaa.. I thought it was funny.

I've realized over the last week that my belly button is slowly doing a disappearing act. It's getting smaller and smaller. :-P *Blek*

As always here is my side kick Buddy haha....

Sunday, April 29, 2012

17 weeks

I'm 17 weeks preggo!!! Yay!

Today I got outta the house for a bit and met some friends for lunch at The Rock Bottom. After that we went and saw what I thought was the dumbest movie ever, it was sooo weird It's called The Cabin in the Wood's. It was really strange and hard to follow. Definitely a one of a kind movie. I just didn't get it click here for the trailer. After that I met up with some other friends went to Nordstrom Rack and Target. While walking to Target I saw these cute little twins with their Dad. He had the stuffed animal backpack leases on them which worked well for him cause they kept trying to go off in different directions. They were so cute though :)

Tonight I found this Video and it's so very cool and shows you the process of conception :)

This weekend I've had a lot of cramping meaning the babies are growing which is good. I feel like I'm getting bigger by the day and definitely look it. On Friday I felt the babies move from outside my stomach it was sooooo cool. I was laying in bed about to fall asleep when I felt a big sneeze coming so I put my hands on my lower belly and sneezed a HUGE sneeze and with my hand I felt a kick and then felt one baby move across the lower part of my stomach. It was sooooo cool, it really made my week :)

My allergies have been absolutely horrible, my nose and throat are super itchy and I've been sneezing giant sneezes.  I'm really sad the weekends over. The only exciting thing is that I took this Friday off for my Birthday Weekend. YAY!!! I can't believe I'm turning 29. I feel so young and definitely not 29 :) But this is going to be such a great year so I'm pretty stoked on that. Hopefully I'll fall asleep soon. I'm having lots of bad cramping as we speak.

 This last week the babies doubled in weight and are finally gaining body fat. And it sure feels like it! Right now they are 5 inches a piece and the size of onions haha......
The baby websites tell me this week I will become very emotional, have weird dreams and have itchy boobs and Belly. Which I read that and said Ummm I think your are a week late those were all my symptoms last week. ha! My stomach is soooo itchy and braking out in a rash cause my skin is stretching and irritated. My dreams have been weird for Weeks now and as of last weeks I've been a emotional wreak crying almost everyday. With the exception of yesterday and today. Woo Hoo!!!

Well its 11:30pm and I'd best get my butt to bed. Goodnight!!!

Thursday, April 26, 2012

On a more serious note

So I'm going to get a little serious because I've had a really rough week and I really just feel a bit lost. It's not the best feeling. I'm sure as a new mother to be I'm not the first to have these thoughts and fears. So I'm just going to put it out there and be honest with myself because I'm the type of person who needs to vocalize what I feel inside in order to get past it.

So lets see where do I start. Being pregnant with twins is really scary. It's quite terrifying and takes a while to settle in with the nerves. Not only does your body change faster than a singleton pregnancy, but they are very high risk pregnancy's and there are so many things that can go wrong. I've gotten past that part and try not to think about it because there's nothing I can do to prevent something from going wrong. I know that stressing over it is not good for me or the babies.  So I take it one day at a time and hope that each day gets easier.

This week my emotions/hormones have really gone in to over drive. I just feel really lost and question who I am. I mean I know who I am but I think who am I as pregnant Gina. Do people think I'm a fun person and how long are they going to want to hangout with me before i become enormously pregnant. Perhaps what I'm feeling  is a bit insecure. I know that this pregnancy has changed my mood and I hope I'm not pushing people away or putting out bad vibes that make people uncomfortable. I see myself becoming somewhat closed off.

I guess to be completely honest before I got pregnant I was a bit of a party animal. Hahaha.. My close friend would probably laugh at this and say no shit! Well for those who don't know me well I was quite the drinker on the weekends. I was a good girl during the week, but did enjoy a glass of wine after work to whined down. So with getting pregnant this is the first time since turning 21 that I have been sober for this long, 4 months that is. I actually really really enjoy it. It's great but I do occasionally crave a swirl or a glass of wine, it doesn't last to long it's more like oooo that sounds yummy...anyways wheres the ice cream, haha....

With that said being sober has given me so much time to think and accept what is going to come in the next few months. I see all my friends doing their normal thing. Hanging out, going to bars, Being social and out and about. I do join them and we go out to dinner then normally swing by Coach's where all the boyfriends and Husbands are and I say my hellos and then go home shortly after. I guess what I'm getting at is I've had to accept that that part of my life is very much over.   I've accepted it and am okay with it. It's definitely time to grow up. When these babies arrive they will be my whole life and I will be a very busy mama with 2 little babies. It's just hard saying goodbye to that part of my life and scary starting this next chapter. 

I have ADD and so my brain is running a mile a minute. There are so many thoughts and feelings running through my head all at once it's so very hard to concentrate and get anything done. Even if I have free time to do something it usually doesn't get done because I can't seem to focus long enough on one thing. I need to get some kind of organizer to keep my life in check.. 

I need to learn how to communicate better. I haven't been vocal with Billy regarding all my fears and anxiety's I've been quietly freaking out to myself and it's just building and building and I think this week it all just started to erupt. So here I am trying to put my ego aside to say I'm freaked out, scared and frazzled. Totally normal but I always try to play it tough, it's time to admit my fears. Becoming a parent to one baby is scary. But becoming a parent to 2 babies is quite frightening. I know I've been blessed with a awesome support team. But I guess it's easier to say it will all be okay when it's not you having the babies. 

So there is my shpeal  :-\ I actually have so much more to say but this is already so long and I hate being a downer. I guess you can say I'm just human. I have fears, I have two babies growing inside me, I'm in pain because they are growing so fast. It's so in my face it's impossible to ignore. But I am so excited, happy and can't wait to hold them and know that they are out of me and okay :) Woo Hoo! I hope I didn't say too much to make me look like a crazy person.

I will be okay. I can do this. Everything will be fine...........

This picture is funny

Wednesday, April 25, 2012

Week 16!!!!

Week 16
This week my babies are the size of avocados. Soooo crazy I took this pic below tonight. It was weird holding them thinking, wow I can't believe the twins are this big, they barely fit in my hand.  I'm sure some people may think it's weirder that the girl allergic to avocado's happens to have 2 in her kitchen. HAHA!

Belly shot! This is my belly over the weekend. So nuts! It's growing so fast. If your curious why I have a giant 7 1/2 inch scar across my belly that's because I had my kidney removed, it wraps around to my back :) It's my favorite scar. I love making up random stories about how I got it ;)

This Picture is the coolest!!!! 
This picture is from They only do the twin pic's by month so this is the 16 week/4 month shot. I think my butt looks like hers SUPER FLAT! I lost my ass now that I no longer do all my gym classes :-( Oh my little avocado's, they are worth it :)  I received an email telling me to watch my language because the bones in the babies ear's are forming this week and they are beginning to hear. I thought that was funny. This week their weight will double. which is pretty crazy. I finally am gaining weight. I've gained 5 pounds since I first got pregnant. I did some comparisons today and found that my 2 babies are equivalent to one baby at week 21. which would look like this. Trippy!

I've been pretty stressed and emotional/sensitive this week. Looks like my hormones are setting in. Lots of tears. Weather I get my feelings hurt, I'm super happy, getting a bill in the mail or watching something sad on TV it has made me cry. Haha.. 

I've started working out a lot to help release all my pent up emotion and stress. It was so funny, the other day I was doing push-ups and when I went down my belly hit the floor before I lowered myself all the way down. That gave me a good laugh. I have 12 weeks left of "light" working out. At week 28 (the beginning of my 3rd trimester) I have to stop. By then I will probably be to huge and not want to do anything anyway. 

One thing I'm realizing right now is people love to touch pregnant people. It's so weird, I go for a hug and get a belly rub instead haha... Or people try to give me a shoulder rub (which is my biggest pet peeve). Or just walk up and touch my belly or lean on me or pet my hair. It's so weird. I hate being touched awkwardly and so it weird's me out. It happens a lot when I go to a bar where people are drunk and happy to see me and my belly. I think that's my biggest problem stop going to bars, normally I stop by to say hi after dinner with the girls and i drop them off at the bar where all the boyfriends/husbands are.  I need to get over it and fast because this is just the beginning. Once my belly gets bigger I'm going to get lots of belly touches/rubs. 

Friday, April 20, 2012

Bye Bye Allergies :)

So I got the approval from my doctor to eat honey. So Thursday I picked up some Local Honey from a Farmers Market store across from my house. It's amazing that from taking it Thurs-Today my allergy symptoms are almost completely gone. Yay just in time for the weekend. If anyone is at a loss for allergy relief I highly recommend you try local honey, it has to be local and from your area in order for it to work. You can find local honey at Whole Foods or at your local farmers market. I have a farmers market type store by my house and that's where I found this stuff. I hate honey and the taste but this stuff was soooo good and fresh eating a spoonful of it was no problem what so ever and was super yummy. 

My Goal this weekend is to make a dent in this book Twinspiration. Hopefully I can find the motivation :) The weather is going to be soooo nice this weekend, I don't know if I will find time to sit still. 

This is my Stomach at week 15. It's so crazy, my stomach is getting bigger and bigger. It's really hard for me to take it all in. I'm totally in shock at how fast it's growing. I feel like every morning that I look in the full bodied mirror (below) that my stomach has grown. Considering we only have one full bodied mirror in our house I don't see my body all at once to often, besides in the morning while getting ready for work.

This is the flier Billy made for the Locks for love event tomorrow at coach's. I can't wait to go and see jiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii21iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\ <-- Fell asleep last night writing this hahaha..... What I meant to say is I can't wait to see who will come out (TONIGHT 4/21) and actually donate their hair! Page the owner of Coach's is going to donate :) I was going to also but I don't qualify because I've bleached my hair multiple times in the last year :( After losing a friend to Cancer this week I really wanted to be apart of this event. But I will just have to watch :) If you donate 8 to 10 inches of hair you will receive $100 in cash and be entered to win prizes as well :) 

Monday, April 16, 2012

Babies and Butterfly's!!!

15 weeks
So I've been wondering how long does it take a girl to feel two babies in her stomach? Gezz!!!! I've only felt them 3 times before today. The first time was 11 weeks. Well I'm 15 weeks now and this morning was the lucky day. As I got to work feeling absolutely miserable with allergies I noticed a ton of moment going on in my stomach. I usually go through a few questions is your phone in your pocket, could it be gas, is your stomach growling? No No and No today was 100% baby movement. It was super exciting and cool. And the best part was I continued to feel them all day. My doctor told me that it would take me longer to feel them because the position of my placenta :-p But Sure enough I felt them. Right now they are 4 inches each so I guess with 8 inches of babies up in there it's about damn time I feel something. 

So today was pretty emotional for me. My friend and coworker lost her battle with Leukemia (blood cancer). She was one amazing woman and will be greatly missed by everyone who knew her. It's crazy how someone can be fine one minute then in a battle for there life the next. I will miss Carol so so much. I worked really close with her when I was the receptionist and she actually helped me get the accounting position I have today. She fought for me when I quit my job and got me a bigger better position I will be forever grateful to time I got to spend with her. 

On a happy note my clairsonic arrived today as well as my prescription acne medicine my doctor prescribed to me for preggo chic's YAY. Sad thing is the Clairsonic takes 24 hours to charge. I want to use it NOW!!! I think I will be bad and use it tomorrow morning :) 

Sunday, April 15, 2012

15 Weeks, Cribs and Allergies!!!

Yesterday Marks 15 weeks Pregnant Woo Hoo!!!! Nothing has really changed still waves of mild cramping every so often while the babies go through there growth spurt. Right now the babies are 4 inches a piece :) 

Yesterday the Cribs arrived from Buy Buy Baby! Huge thanks to My Dad and his Fiance Mary who bought us 2 amazing cribs from the Walnut Creek store and paid for them to drive them up to San Jose for us :) 

We need to clean the carpets in the back room before we can set them up but I'm so excited that the babies room is coming together. People may think Wow you guys are ahead of the game and doing things so soon considering I'm only15 weeks pregnant. But because I'm having twins I have to make sure I get everything set up on time in case I get put on bed rest and can't leave the house. 

After the cribs came I took buddy to the Los Gatos Creek Trail with my friend Kristy. We usually do this every Saturday but haven't gotten to the last few weeks with all the rainy weather. It was a super nice day and nice to get out of the house. As soon as I got home my allergies kicked in and I've been absolutely miserable and laid out ever since. I haven't had allergies this bad in I don't know how long. I have been avoiding taking anything but my prenatals since I've gooten pregnant but I broke down today and bought Benadryl which just made me pass out. My Neti pot has not helped any. Tonight I took a Steamy bath and that helped a little. I've even broken out in a rash, I feel like I'm allergic to everything!

The one thing I really want to take is Local Honey because I know that works for me. But with all the research I've done there are a ton of mixed reviews about unpasteurized honey and weather or not it's safe. Considering pasteurizing honey is a whole different process then pasteurizing meats, cheeses, milk, juice, etc. It's super confusing. I may need to email my doctor and fast because I'm absolutely miserable. I read at week 15 in to your pregnancy your mucus ducts swell so things like allergies can seem extra severe. And they do, Boo!!! Even Buddy's allergies have gotten bad, poor little lamb!

Buddy super excited to hit the trail.

Thursday, April 12, 2012

14 WEEKS & My First Prenatal Apt.

14 1/2 Weeks!!!!

Today I had my prenatal appointment. It was my first one so I really didn't know what to expect. It was actually really strange. My doctor uses a lap top to track all her patents and right when she walked in the room her lap top froze. So she couldn't see what I have and haven't done test and lab work wise. So I felt like she was just winging it. She told me that I'm going to be getting a ton of ultrasounds in the near future. (FINE WIT ME) So she busted out the hand held heart monitor and could only find 1 baby's heart beat and so she quickly rushed me over to the ultrasound room to make sure the other baby was okay. Thankfully all is well in my belly. The twins got so big and were cuddling together and looked like they were sleeping. They kept banging there heads together though it was kind funny. So we got about literally 1 minute of ultrasound time, with no pictures :( But I guess for this type of appointment I wasn't suppose to get an ultrasound so we got super lucky :) Unfortunitly since the computer was down they didn't find out till 5:30pm that I was suppose to go to the main hospital to do more blood work :( so now I have to find time to go down there so that it doesn't disrupt my work schedule :-\ 

My hormones are so wacky my face and back have totally broken out :( Damn pregnant acne. So I made the expensive commitment to purchase a Clairsonic. I got the top of the line one and ordered the acne brush head. I can't wait to get it in the mail I'm soooo excited!!! The not so exciting part is once I get it I hear your face might break out the worst its ever been because everything is clearing out of your pores. Luckily it only lasts 2 weeks and then it's clear skin sky's from then on (if used regularly). Woo Hoo.

Since I'm pregnant I'm looking for alternatives for clearing my problematic skin. I found on YouTube the Honey Cinnamon mask and gave it a try tonight. I call it my poop mask. It looks soooo ridiculously gross. haha.... After I washed it off I put a thick layer of Aloe Vera gel on my face. It's really soothing and makes my skin feel SUPER soft and helps ease the pain from my blemishes. 

Baby Gina! Probably around 18 months when I was a lower case g 

Here I am as a baby probably afraid to go play on the playground cause I was a scaredy cat mama's girl.

Sunday, April 8, 2012

14 weeks & Happy Easter!!!

!4 weeks!!!!

Things are pretty much the same as last week. Tired, Cramping, Stretching, aka Round ligament pain . My stomach feels like its super full and sticking out like I just ate the biggest meal of my life, but its just the babies growing. In the picture below you can see my side kick Buddy. Haha... he's always by my side. He's gotten a lot better and is now sleeping through the night and is being a super good boy. We now give him full rain of the house, instead of having him sleep in the laundry room.  It's made a huge difference. I think the water heater kicking on in the morning had a huge part in his behavioral problems. 

Last night I had the worse round ligament pain ever, I went to bed early in a ton of pain. Then woke up out of a dead sleep in the middle of the night in so much pain it was crazy.  This morning I had my first bout of morning sickness. I ran to the bathroom twice thinking I was going to puke, luckily I didn't. I guess I'm super lucky I've not been getting morning sickness on a regular basis because I felt absolutely miserable for a good hour. 

On another note yesterday I said my final goodbye to the Blue Bomber. We donated my car to the Hope Foundation. I was really sad to see the car go. I drove it for the last 10 years.  My Mom bought it for me the summer before my senior year of high school. That car has been so good to me. Hopefully they can fix her up real nice and give her to an under privileged family. 

Billy was designing a flier last night for a Locks of Love event at Coaches coming up on April 21st. He pretty much convinced me to participate and donate 10 inches of my hair, it's something I've wanted to do for the last 12 years. Unfortunatly  since I've bleached my hair a few times in the last year I do not qualify. But it's for a great cause. They will have a team of stylists and if you donate 8 to 10 inches of hair they will give you a $100 and give you a nice hair cut after. 
I'll post the flier once it's complete, Billy did an amazing job on it. He's so creative :)

If I did cut it I would totally have the "MOM" haircut. haha..  I always use to wonder why mom's cut there hair off after they had kids. Then I held a little baby and got a chuck of hair ripped out of my head. .

Thursday, April 5, 2012

13 1/2 weeks

The Belly  at 13 1/2 weeks. 

7 day's till our next ultrasound. I'm so excited to see how much the twins have grown. They will be 14 weeks. We are hoping to see if we will be able to tell their genders. I know its still early but sometimes you can depending on their positions. 

I've been watching lots of YouTube videos. This video is insane!!! Her twins are moving all over the place It looks so painful.

I just watched her 13 week video and we have all the same symptoms, pretty crazy!!! 

Tuesday, April 3, 2012

Hello Second Trimester!!!!

Tonight I picked up my Monster Bank, It's so cute. It's a piggy bank and you put the money in it's mouth. I figure the twins can use it when they get older. 

Week 13
The Beginning of my 2nd Trimester 

My stomach is slowly growing. The other day I was worried because a lot of girls at 13 weeks are my size or bigger and since I'm pregnant with 2 babies that worries me that maybe they aren't growing fast enough. I know I will probably kick my self soon for saying that and miss the time when my stomach looked like this. I'm just being extremely paranoid :)  I'm sure the babies are fine and will be huge in no time. Right now they are probably around 3 inches each, so there is about 6 inches of baby up in there. 

Today the cramping started up again, when this happens it makes me super nauseous!  I've been so tired all week, all I want to do is sleep. I finally thought I was over this and was getting my energy back but I guess not. Last night I passed out at 9pm and woke up at 6:30am still exhausted and was tired all day. 

Time for bed!!!!