I wrote this when the babies turned 2 months old but forget to post it. Opp's! So much has changed since this time. I'll have to write I new update blog. This was written 11/7/12
Well I had a feeling that blogging would be super hard once I had the babies. The days have really become a blur. I am on the babies schedule so bedtimes don’t really exist for me, I sleep when they sleep. I feed the babies every 2-4 hours and they sleep in between feedings for the most part so my days and nights just kind of meld together. I don’t really know where to start and what to write about.
So let’s just say twinfants are exhausting! I think I wrote that in my last blog. So we used to keep the babies in their Rock-N-Plays (http://www.fisher-price.com/en_US/brands/babygear/products/51903) 24/7. They absolutely love them and so do we. Within the last 2 weeks we decided to start putting the boys in their room and they now sleep in a crib together at night. Surprisingly they are doing great and seem to enjoy sharing a crib. I was a bit concerned how they would do because when we keep them in the rock-n-plays they were apart and so having them sleep together I thought it could go one of two ways, Good or Bad. Of course it went good considering they shared such a tight space in my belly for 9 months. (put pic from their first night sleeping together) Here is a picture from the first night they slept together. I walked in their room and found them like this. My heart melted.
So in my last blog I was pretty ashamed to write about how I felt like I didn’t have a connection with the babies and how I felt as if I was their caregiver and not their mother. I was also was having a hard time processing that I had 2 babies. Every time I woke up I would be like OMG I have 2 babies and just stare at them in disbelief. Haha… Well I’m happy to say now that my connection with them is a whole lot stronger. Yayyyyyyyyy!!!! I don’t feel like a horrible person anymore, it really affected me that I felt that way. I love my babies so much and kiss them every time I pick them up which is like 20+ times a day (each).
I know a lot of people have expressed interest on how I go about my everyday life and if I have help every day or if Billy works from home. So Billy stayed home with me the first 2 weeks. Which was really more like one week with me in the hospital and one week at home. I was so scared when he went back to work and kept thinking how am I going to do this? I’m a super independent person who doesn’t like to ask for help. I like to do most things on my own. So the answer is No, I don’t have outside help every day, I do it all on my own. I’m very lucky in that Billy has a flexible work schedule since he has his own business. I’m also thankful that his Mother doesn’t work and comes to watch the boys during the day when I need to go to my doctor appointments. I’m also super grateful that my mother lives next door to me.
So my day goes a little something like this Billy wakes up for work at 7-7:30am around 8-9am the babies will wake up and Billy helps me feed them before he goes off to work. For the most part after we feed them they will go back to sleep and I will sometimes go back to sleep too. After we feed them I will pump because my boobs feel like they are going to explode. Once I pump I enjoy a cup of coffee which is the highlight of my day. The babies will then sleep till about 12pm and I will tandem feed them and change their diapers. I then will either give them a bath, put them on their play mat or put them down for a nap. From there I will feed them again around 2 or 3pm and again change them. Then put them down and pump, clean the house or stare at the TV and zone out or play on my phone. Hahaha… they then eat again around 5pm, most of the time Billy is home by then and will help me feed them for the rest of the night. We then feed them again at 8pm and again around 12pm, this is the last feeding I have with Billy since he goes to bed right after this feeding. I then will stay up with them if they don’t go right to sleep. I then pump again and go to bed. I will then set my alarm for 4 hours from the time they ate last. For the most part they will wake up between the 3 hour and 4 hour mark. I then will tandem feed them and change them and put them back to bed. Sometimes they will don’t want to sleep and will cry, so I will rock them to sleep in a rocking chair. It’s hard because now that I sleep back in my bed with Billy if a baby cry’s I feel the need to jump out of bed and tend to him because for one I don’t want the Babies to wake up Billy since he has to work and I also don’t want the baby to wake up the other baby and be stuck with two crying babies. Lucky for me one baby can be screaming at the top of his lungs in the others ear and the other baby won’t even flinch. When this happens I always check on the other baby to make sure he’s okay and still alive because those kids have some powerful lungs. I don’t know how anyone can sleep through that. I then go back to bed and my day starts all over again….in 3 hours.
I feel like everything people have told me prior to having kids is totally true. As in you won’t sleep, have time to eat or even eat a hot meal, take a shower, have time to yourself and the list goes on. Parenthood definitely has changed my life. Prior to kids I would have never ever been seen outside of my house without make-up. Now I don’t even care, I go out in PJ’s with no make-up and curly hair (My hairs curly, I used to straighten it every day). I now understand how woman “let themselves go” fashion wise. You put your kids first and make sure their put together before you are.
I wrote about breast feeding in my last blog. Since the boys were preemies they were not strong enough to breast feed. So I pump and Bottle feed them. Which I still do in order to keep them on a tight schedule. That and simply I do not produce enough milk to feed 2 babies. So I pump and we supplement with formula. We mix it up half and half unless I’ve pumped enough to feed them all breast milk. We like to feed them all formula at night so that it fills them up more and they sleep longer. That also helps me pump and refrigerate my milk so that I can feed them all breast milk during the day. I am happy that the boys are now strong enough to latch, which is comforting but OMG breast feeding is sooooo painful. I had no idea, you would think those little guys had teeth or something. Hehe…
There are things that have come along with breast feeding that I would have never imagined that I’d go through or experience. Such as breast infections called Mastitis as well as clogged ducts. The first time I got Mastitis I thought I had the flu. It was the first time I got a babysitter and went out for the day. I didn’t pump for 8 hours and wore an underwire bra, which is a HUGE no no while breastfeeding. Lesson learned!!! I will never wear an underwire bra while breastfeeding. I had a temp of 101-103.8, it was absolutely horrible. On top of that my boobs were super red and the pain was absolutely unbearable, unlike anything I’ve ever felt. Then again this week I wore a tube top to bed with a built in bra and woke up with a clogged duct which is pretty much everything I just explained without the nasty fever. I feel like my boobs totally hold me back, in that I can’t be out to long without having to pump. I’ve had to change my diet because certain foods affect the babies in a negative way. Which means no more fruit juice, spicy foods or chocolate. Which unfortunately for me are all of my favorite things.
Lots of ladies have asked me how I lost all my baby weight so fast. It took about 6 weeks for me to get back down to my pre-pregnancy weight. My answer is simple all I do is breastfeed/pump, pick up babies and clean the house all day, with an occasional stroll around the neighborhood. To be honest I only gained about 35 pounds during my pregnancy. After the babies were delivered I was 20 pounds lighter from that alone, which left me with 15 pounds to shed. After I had the babies I still looked super pregnant . I was bummed when all my friends asked me how long it would take for my stomach to go down. I wanted to tell them to piss off because I’d just had two freaking babies. Lucky for me the weight really did fall right off. The more I pumped the faster my uterus shrank and my stomach went down. I’m a pretty healthy eater. I’m a vegetarian and I don’t eat greasy or fast food. Today I tried to work out my abs (with approval of my doctor), I found my incision from the C-section is not healed, OUCH! So my plan is to do cardio for now until I’m full healed.
I’ve found myself getting hooked on a lot of TV shows. The weirdest one yet is Breaking Amish, it’s so ridiculous how those Amish kids were so sheltered before moving to New York City. I’ve learned so much about their culture. Other shows I’m hooked on are The Chew, Long Island Medium, SOA, Paranormal Witness, New Girl, Ben and Kate, Ghost Adventures, The Walking Dead, The Doctors, Dr Oz, and The Ellen Show. Yes I watch way too much TV. I can’t wait for Biggest Loser to start up now that Julian is back ß What a dork I am, I stopped watching when she left.
The Boys had their first Halloween last week. Billy picked out their costumes. The Boys were Chewbacca and Yoda. They were sooooo adorable. On Halloween Billy, the Twins, my Mom and Myself went to Billy’s parents house and had app’s and dinner with his family. It was a lot of fun. We then put them in the stroller and walked them to Billy’s family friend’s houses in the neighborhood to show them off. I can’t wait till they are old enough to actually go trick or treating.
This week the Twins turned 2 months old. It really blows my mind how fast time has gone by. They have grown so much. They’ve almost doubled their weight since we brought them home. I’m very greatful to have in extended leave for my maternity leave. Lucky for me I don’t have to go back to work till February. Woo Hoo! At that time the boys will be 5 months old and will hopefully be sleeping through the night. I feel that at that time they will be old enough that I wont feel as guilty going back to work. I’m just really sad that I will be away from them for 10+ hours a day. Billy tried talking to me about when we should start looking in to babysitters and I lost it and started balling. I’m going to be such a mess when that time comes. I get sad leaving them, it’s gotten a lot better. The first couple of weeks I refused to leave them. The first time I did I had an anxiety attack. The 2nd time I went to go to the drug store I cried and freaked out and couldn’t even wait for them to fill my prescription before coming home. Which was retarded of me because I had Billy’s Mom come over and babysit which totally defeated the propose by coming right back home. Baby steps for this Mama I guess. Now I’m like peace out babies Mama needs a brake. Haha…
Here are some pictures from the last few months :)
The Giant's won the world series
1 month old vs. 2 months
1 day old vs. 2 months
rocking two babies at once
4 1/2 pounds
their arms were the size of my finger
back when they could both fit on my chest
Weston, i must have went out that that day cause i had make-up on
tiny little Weston
2 1/2 days of diapers
4 pound babies
great Grandma and Grandpa
1 month family photo
2 month family photo