I wrote this when the babies turned 2 months old but forget to post it. Opp's! So much has changed since this time. I'll have to write I new update blog. This was written 11/7/12
1-2 months
Well I had a feeling that blogging would be super hard once
I had the babies. The days have really become a blur. I am on the babies
schedule so bedtimes don’t really exist for me, I sleep when they sleep. I feed
the babies every 2-4 hours and they sleep in between feedings for the most part
so my days and nights just kind of meld together. I don’t really know where to
start and what to write about.
So let’s just say twinfants are exhausting! I think I wrote
that in my last blog. So we used to keep the babies in their Rock-N-Plays (http://www.fisher-price.com/en_US/brands/babygear/products/51903)
24/7. They absolutely love them and so do we. Within the last 2 weeks we
decided to start putting the boys in their room and they now sleep in a crib
together at night. Surprisingly they are doing great and seem to enjoy sharing
a crib. I was a bit concerned how they would do because when we keep them in
the rock-n-plays they were apart and so having them sleep together I thought it
could go one of two ways, Good or Bad.
Of course it went good considering they shared such a tight space in my belly
for 9 months. (put pic from their first
night sleeping together) Here is a picture from the first night they slept
together. I walked in their room and found them like this. My heart melted.
So in my last blog I was pretty ashamed to write about how I
felt like I didn’t have a connection with the babies and how I felt as if I was
their caregiver and not their mother. I was also was having a hard time
processing that I had 2 babies. Every time I woke up I would be like OMG I have
2 babies and just stare at them in disbelief. Haha… Well I’m happy to say now
that my connection with them is a whole lot stronger. Yayyyyyyyyy!!!! I don’t
feel like a horrible person anymore, it really affected me that I felt that
way. I love my babies so much and kiss
them every time I pick them up which is like 20+ times a day (each).
I know a lot of people have expressed interest on how I go
about my everyday life and if I have help every day or if Billy works from
home. So Billy stayed home with me the first 2 weeks. Which was really more
like one week with me in the hospital and one week at home. I was so scared
when he went back to work and kept thinking how am I going to do this? I’m a
super independent person who doesn’t like to ask for help. I like to do most
things on my own. So the answer is No,
I don’t have outside help every day, I do it all on my own. I’m very lucky in that Billy has a flexible
work schedule since he has his own business. I’m also thankful that his Mother
doesn’t work and comes to watch the boys during the day when I need to go to my
doctor appointments. I’m also super grateful that my mother lives next door to
me.
So my day goes a little something like this Billy wakes up
for work at 7-7:30am around 8-9am the babies will wake up and Billy helps me
feed them before he goes off to work. For the most part after we feed them they
will go back to sleep and I will sometimes go back to sleep too. After we feed
them I will pump because my boobs feel like they are going to explode. Once I pump I enjoy a cup of coffee which is
the highlight of my day. The babies will then sleep till about 12pm and I will
tandem feed them and change their diapers. I then will either give them a bath,
put them on their play mat or put them down for a nap. From there I will feed
them again around 2 or 3pm and again change them. Then put them down and pump,
clean the house or stare at the TV and zone out or play on my phone. Hahaha…
they then eat again around 5pm, most of the time Billy is home by then and will
help me feed them for the rest of the night. We then feed them again at 8pm and
again around 12pm, this is the last feeding I have with Billy since he goes to
bed right after this feeding. I then will stay up with them if they don’t go
right to sleep. I then pump again and go to bed. I will then set my alarm for 4
hours from the time they ate last. For the most part they will wake up between
the 3 hour and 4 hour mark. I then will
tandem feed them and change them and put them back to bed. Sometimes they will
don’t want to sleep and will cry, so I will rock them to sleep in a rocking
chair. It’s hard because now that I sleep back in my bed with Billy if a baby
cry’s I feel the need to jump out of bed and tend to him because for one I
don’t want the Babies to wake up Billy since he has to work and I also don’t
want the baby to wake up the other baby and be stuck with two crying babies.
Lucky for me one baby can be screaming at the top of his lungs in the others
ear and the other baby won’t even flinch. When this happens I always check on
the other baby to make sure he’s okay and still alive because those kids have
some powerful lungs. I don’t know how anyone can sleep through that. I then go
back to bed and my day starts all over again….in 3 hours.
I feel like everything people have told me prior to having
kids is totally true. As in you won’t sleep, have time to eat or even eat a hot
meal, take a shower, have time to yourself and the list goes on. Parenthood definitely has changed my life.
Prior to kids I would have never ever been seen outside of my house without
make-up. Now I don’t even care, I go out in PJ’s with no make-up and curly hair
(My hairs curly, I used to straighten it every day). I now understand how woman “let themselves
go” fashion wise. You put your kids first and make
sure their put together before you are.
I wrote about breast feeding in my last blog. Since the boys
were preemies they were not strong enough to breast feed. So I pump and Bottle
feed them. Which I still do in order to keep them on a tight schedule. That and
simply I do not produce enough milk to feed 2 babies. So I pump and we
supplement with formula. We mix it up
half and half unless I’ve pumped enough to feed them all breast milk. We like
to feed them all formula at night so that it fills them up more and they sleep
longer. That also helps me pump and refrigerate my milk so that I can feed them
all breast milk during the day. I am
happy that the boys are now strong enough to latch, which is comforting but OMG
breast feeding is sooooo painful. I had no idea, you would think those little
guys had teeth or something. Hehe…
There are things that have come along with breast feeding
that I would have never imagined that I’d go through or experience. Such as
breast infections called Mastitis as well as clogged ducts. The first time I got Mastitis I thought I had
the flu. It was the first time I got a
babysitter and went out for the day. I
didn’t pump for 8 hours and wore an underwire bra, which is a HUGE no no while
breastfeeding. Lesson learned!!! I will
never wear an underwire bra while breastfeeding. I had a temp of 101-103.8, it
was absolutely horrible. On top of that my boobs were super red and the pain
was absolutely unbearable, unlike anything I’ve ever felt. Then again this week
I wore a tube top to bed with a built in bra and woke up with a clogged duct
which is pretty much everything I just explained without the nasty fever. I feel like my boobs totally hold me back,
in that I can’t be out to long without having to pump. I’ve had to change my
diet because certain foods affect the babies in a negative way. Which means no
more fruit juice, spicy foods or chocolate. Which unfortunately for me are all
of my favorite things.
Lots of ladies have asked me how I lost all my baby weight
so fast. It took about 6 weeks for me to get back down to my pre-pregnancy
weight. My answer is simple all I do is
breastfeed/pump, pick up babies and clean the house all day, with an occasional
stroll around the neighborhood. To be honest I only gained about 35 pounds
during my pregnancy. After the babies were delivered I was 20 pounds lighter
from that alone, which left me with 15 pounds to shed. After I had the babies I
still looked super pregnant . I was bummed when all my friends asked me how
long it would take for my stomach to go down. I wanted to tell them to piss off
because I’d just had two freaking babies. Lucky for me the weight really did
fall right off. The more I pumped the faster my uterus shrank and my stomach
went down. I’m a pretty healthy eater. I’m a vegetarian and I don’t eat greasy
or fast food. Today I tried to work out
my abs (with approval of my doctor), I found my incision from the C-section is
not healed, OUCH! So my plan is to do cardio for now until I’m full healed.
I’ve found myself getting hooked on a lot of TV shows. The
weirdest one yet is Breaking Amish, it’s so ridiculous how those Amish kids
were so sheltered before moving to New York City. I’ve learned so much about their culture.
Other shows I’m hooked on are The Chew, Long Island Medium, SOA, Paranormal
Witness, New Girl, Ben and Kate, Ghost Adventures, The Walking Dead, The
Doctors, Dr Oz, and The Ellen Show. Yes I watch way too much TV. I can’t wait
for Biggest Loser to start up now that Julian is back ß What a dork I am, I stopped
watching when she left.
The Boys had their first Halloween last week. Billy picked
out their costumes. The Boys were Chewbacca and Yoda. They were sooooo
adorable. On Halloween Billy, the Twins,
my Mom and Myself went to Billy’s parents house and had app’s and dinner with
his family. It was a lot of fun. We then
put them in the stroller and walked them to Billy’s family friend’s houses in
the neighborhood to show them off. I
can’t wait till they are old enough to actually go trick or treating.
This week the Twins turned 2 months old. It really blows my
mind how fast time has gone by. They have grown so much. They’ve almost doubled
their weight since we brought them home. I’m very greatful to have in extended
leave for my maternity leave. Lucky for me I don’t have to go back to work till
February. Woo Hoo! At that time the boys
will be 5 months old and will hopefully be sleeping through the night. I feel
that at that time they will be old enough that I wont feel as guilty going back
to work. I’m just really sad that I will be away from them for 10+ hours a day.
Billy tried talking to me about when we should start looking in to babysitters
and I lost it and started balling. I’m going to be such a mess when that time
comes. I get sad leaving them, it’s gotten a lot better. The first couple of
weeks I refused to leave them. The first
time I did I had an anxiety attack. The 2nd time I went to go to the
drug store I cried and freaked out and couldn’t even wait for them to fill my
prescription before coming home. Which was retarded of me because I had Billy’s
Mom come over and babysit which totally defeated the propose by coming right
back home. Baby steps for this Mama I guess. Now I’m like peace out babies Mama
needs a brake. Haha…
Here are some pictures from the last few months :)
Halloween
The Giant's won the world series
1 month old vs. 2 months
1 day old vs. 2 months
rocking two babies at once
4 1/2 pounds
their arms were the size of my finger
back when they could both fit on my chest
Weston, i must have went out that that day cause i had make-up on
Wyatt
tiny little Weston
soooo cute
2 1/2 days of diapers
sooooo cute
1st bath
4 pound babies
great Grandma and Grandpa
1 month family photo
2 month family photo